Desperately looking for a job right now.
Coz i cant seem to think of anything else to do at home.
Going out is fun, but the money i have is limited, so going out is also limited.
Cant bear to go out everyday.
Maybe 3-4 times a week should be fine.
But for the other 3-4 days at home...
Damn i need to find a hobby.
Cant believe im saying this, but im tired of playing guitar for hours everyday.
Im tired of watching hours of television.
Im tired of sleeping like a pig.

Okay. Ranting done.
Now looking on the bright side, I got my F50 boots a few days ago.
Costed me $159, but since im desperate for a proper pair of boots, its okay i guess..
Sunday playing at khalsa.
I hope it wont be cancelled.
Might be going to get my new guitar amplifier that same day with my old man.
He wanted to give me something for my 4As for Os.
So yeah, i asked for an amp. The only thing that i needed right now.
Was planning to buy it myself, but since he offered, thanks dad :D

Back to being emo.
Have you ever felt like disappearing?
Go far far away and be left alone.
Or at least to be invisible.
Where no one gives a damn about what you do.
I know what you're thinking.
"You wont have any friends, no one will be there for you, etc etc"
But looking at it optimistically, there wont be anyone to disturb you.
To hurt you, to whatever you.
And sometimes i wonder..
If i suddenly disappear or die, how many people out there will care?

Fuck im scaring myself with this death talk >.>
And yeah.
I DONT WANT TO HEAR ANYONE OF YOU CALLING ME EMO.
UNLESS YOU WANT TO DIE IN MY HANDS. :D

What is happening right now?
Am i imagining all of this?
Or has it been reality all this while?
I cant find the answers myself.
So i need you to help me answer them for me.
So tell me: When you see me, what do you feel?
Tell me how you feel and i will do one of these 2:
Stay, or get out of here.