1st day today.
Fucking tired.
Stand for 7 hrs straight.
Worst than Robinsons. Haha.
I suspect tmr will be full of drunk people.
Night shift confirm a lot ask for wines and beers T.T
I want to run awayyyy T.T



Aussie chick shreadding guitar? Damn, I love her. haha

Lesson #2: The closer you are to someone/something, the harder it is to let go.

So yeah. Ive been thinking. Lots of things have been happening around me. Some that im not proud of. Lots of things that teach me how to be a good person. And i guess i need to be a better human being.. This might be too late for new year resolutions.. So i guess i'll call this a 17-year-old resolution. So yeah, here are some stuffs im planning to do this year:

1)Be more religious.
Dont laugh assholes. Im serious. Im going to try and pray 5 times a day whenever possible, less vulgarities, etc etc.

2)Morning/Midnight jogs.
I need to train my stamina.. So im thinking of jogging around the neighbourhood at least 3 times a week. I dont want to get a bronze for napha and having to go an extra 3 months of NS :)

3)Be more respectful.
Even though i dont believe in karma, i do think that in order for people to respect you, is for you to respect them. This is something that really took me a long time to realize..

Will add more in the future. So basically, i want to be a better person and healthier :D



I walk, you run
Feel so outdone
You always wanted it to be one on one
I cost, you're free
Make me believe
That you've been innocent 'til proven guilty

So, scrape my hands and knees
Softer now, I plead for you forgiveness
Cause the world can't stand to witness
You keep tearing me down
Looks like I met my match today

Play me in everything
Make me a rival
But you still don't see that you're
Sore winner
A sore winner
Losing is not your thing
You can't hold the title
But you still don't see that you're
Sore winner
A sore winner

I want, you feed
Pick up your speed
There can't be saving if it's already been won
I play for keeps but you don't listen
Remember me?
I'm what your missing
Missing out on (Missing out on)
Stuck in this competition

So, scrape my hands and knees
Softer now,
I read your mindless interest
As we're coming down to inches
You keep tearing me down
Looks like I met my match today

Play me in everything
Make me a rival
But you still don't see that you're
Sore winner
A sore winner
Losing is not your thing
You can't hold the title
But you still don't see that you're
Sore winner
A sore winner

Play me in everything
Make me a rival
But you still don't see that you're
Sore winner
A sore winner
Losing is not your thing
You can't hold the title
But you still don't see that you're
Sore winner (Still don't see that you're)
A sore winner

Play me in everything (Play me!)
Make me a rival (Make me!)
But you still don't see that you're
A sore winner

Realness

Nice song by TFT. I like :)

Lesson #1: The only way to oppose hatred is with more hatred.

am i really THAT nice? too nice that people can take advantage of me and stuffs? sometime i ask myself why do i even bother trying to be nice to them...

Cousin came to my house.
Walked around the park with him for a while coz very bored.
Offered me 2 sticks :D
Hahas. So much for trying to stop smoking :)
Went to Mac and got some milkshakes.
Then walked back home.
Now soo bored.
Waiting for other cousins to come.

So yeah. Plans for tmr:
1. Breakfast with dzul, hawa, and zura(i think)
2. LAN gaming with them
3. Meet zil to find his bag.
4. Soccer
5. Soccer
6. Soccer

Cant wait :D

IM HAPPY :D:D:D:D:D:D

okay. its 12.45 now on my watch. and i soo bored coz there is nothing to do. why am i awake at this point of time? its all becoz of crystal who called at 11.30 -.- just had to call early in the morning. lol

ugh crap. im soo bored right now. imma go eat now. bb

Boo yeah! Tried out my F50 today. The metal studs were scary, stepped on my own toes purposely to feel the pain, and woah, it hurts even w/o putting much force. haha. anyways, after soccer @ khalsa, went to city square mall to have brunch. ate at kfc. dad called after a while. met him and mum outside city square and made our way to peninsula shopping centre. got myself a 15 watt Marshall amp with built in effects :D:D wanted the 30 watt, but it costs fucking exp, and the one i was eyeing on a few days ago had disappeared. so i fell in love at first sight with that amp ;) walked around penin and suddenly thought of buying an acoustic guitar xD and guess whatt?? my dad also bought me an acoustic guitar! I love you dad :D:D:D hahaha. then went to vivo coz my sis wanted a bear from that build a bear thingy. a fucking bear costs a fucking $140. thats almost the price of my acoustic guitar o.O yeah. her bear looks like some mat rempit. it had harley leather jacket. LOL. haha. ate at pizza hut after that and had ice cream for desserts :) best! i look really dumb when walking home from the carpark. guitar behind my bag, sling bag hanging on my shoulders, shoe bag on my left hand, and an amp on my right >.<



i watched you walk away from life
helplessly gripping my own
i lie awake in my strive
the lights you walked was so
the feeling that your still with me now
your watching me from the clouds

i saw you break your innocence
but you left me on my own
you left me all alone
you left me all alone

i watched you walk away from life
my eyes wait for yours
to feel your presence of life
my smiles now are forced
the feelings that your still with me now
my soul is lost and found

i saw you break your innocence
but you left me on my own
you left me all alone
you left me all alone

my heart has been ripped away
but i have one thing to say

i saw you break your innocence
but you left me on my own
you left me all alone

i saw you break your innocence
but you left me on my own
you left me all alone
you left me all alone


yeah.. you left me all alone...

Oh-em-gheeeeeeeee!!! pardon me for intruding and hacking into muhaimin's account. I admit i have nothing else better to do. Despite having my own account, i prefer to use this one. It's just more fun to blog somewhere else than our own. Anyway, today... my day didn't go as well as how i expected it to be. To be honest, i'd rather have a boring day than to be involved in a fight with a loved one. I hate hot-tempered people, you know that? Why? Because nothing can be resolved when your mind isn't straight moreover ruled by your emotions. It always go out of hand and that just makes my blood boil at really high temperature i tell youuuuuuuu. There's no way to talk things through especially not with someone who thinks they are always damn right. Furthermore, it just makes it worse that you can't explain yourself because when you try to bring forward your opinion and prove your rights, they think you're just being an unfilial child who now dares to speak up and object their parents. Yes, that is reality for me. Side tracking abit for now. I saved money but i can't spend it. Funny. I do not like to tied down by some ridiculous rules. And neither do i like to be told not to spend my own money. It's not like as if there's NOTHING inside my account. Seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. When i spend, i make sure there's some more money inside just in case. I may be spendthrift but i'm not that careless mind you. I can't stand it when you lecture me. It always boils down to me and my fault always. I'm lazy i'm this i'm that. When will this all stop?! When will be the day when you start apologising for you not cooking etc. I mean, i don't like to be reprimanded for things i do that by the way, do not trouble you in any way. I don't even ask you for money to fund me for these few months before i start my poly life dammit. I'm responsible for my own expenditures and still you're not happy. ARGH. I gave you good results for O's and i don't even ask you for anything unlike my other friends who do. AND it's not okay for you to throw tantrums at me just because you had a bad day at work. Everybody have bad days and when you arrive home, i wish you could be sensitive enough.

Sincerely,
B.B

Desperately looking for a job right now.
Coz i cant seem to think of anything else to do at home.
Going out is fun, but the money i have is limited, so going out is also limited.
Cant bear to go out everyday.
Maybe 3-4 times a week should be fine.
But for the other 3-4 days at home...
Damn i need to find a hobby.
Cant believe im saying this, but im tired of playing guitar for hours everyday.
Im tired of watching hours of television.
Im tired of sleeping like a pig.

Okay. Ranting done.
Now looking on the bright side, I got my F50 boots a few days ago.
Costed me $159, but since im desperate for a proper pair of boots, its okay i guess..
Sunday playing at khalsa.
I hope it wont be cancelled.
Might be going to get my new guitar amplifier that same day with my old man.
He wanted to give me something for my 4As for Os.
So yeah, i asked for an amp. The only thing that i needed right now.
Was planning to buy it myself, but since he offered, thanks dad :D

Back to being emo.
Have you ever felt like disappearing?
Go far far away and be left alone.
Or at least to be invisible.
Where no one gives a damn about what you do.
I know what you're thinking.
"You wont have any friends, no one will be there for you, etc etc"
But looking at it optimistically, there wont be anyone to disturb you.
To hurt you, to whatever you.
And sometimes i wonder..
If i suddenly disappear or die, how many people out there will care?

Fuck im scaring myself with this death talk >.>
And yeah.
I DONT WANT TO HEAR ANYONE OF YOU CALLING ME EMO.
UNLESS YOU WANT TO DIE IN MY HANDS. :D

What is happening right now?
Am i imagining all of this?
Or has it been reality all this while?
I cant find the answers myself.
So i need you to help me answer them for me.
So tell me: When you see me, what do you feel?
Tell me how you feel and i will do one of these 2:
Stay, or get out of here.

Do not follow me, for I shall not lead.
Do not lead me, for I shall not follow.
Walk beside me, and we shall do it together.

and yes, this is muhaimin posting. the other post was not by me.

Hello.
I am a very cool girl who only wants to be known as H. My moods are all over the spectrum. I love to talk and make people listen to me. Fortunately for me, i have very good friends who are able to tolerate me and vice versa. Friends who do not judge me but accepts me for who i am.

okay, this blog post isn't about me blaberring about myself. I want to talk about my day. I went out with Quack today. We went for some window shopping, bought a few stuffs and walked around to wait for the flea market to officially start at 4pm. However, that toot flea market cheated my feelings because when i reached the destination, there was nothing. Yeap, my heart was broken into a billion million pieces. I thought i arrived at the wrong place, but no. Though our hearts were cheated, we quickly thought of other alternatives to enjoy our day. No point sulking over that flea market. HMPH. i shall remember it always.

Eventually, we ended up singing our hearts out at this Karaoke place that i forgot the name. I've never tried karaoke-ing elsewhere except at home. But that was ages ago! So, i had a great time standing on their sofas, jumping around and singing like there's no tomorrow. Surprisingly, there were very few customers. THE EVEN MORE GOOD NEWS WAS, WE RECEIVED COUPONS FOR 3 HOURS FREE. The offer states that i can bring as many people i want but the 'free' thing does not include the drinks. But it's alright. I am so planning to go karaoke-ing again, but this time, i'm bringing my troop baby!

I kind of have my schedule set up for this coming week. I am looking forward to tomorrow because someone's gonna be cooking for me with LOVE. hahahaha. I haven't visited them for quite awhile and i'm pretty excited to SPILL all about my days and events to them. WHEEEE. Okay, i think i filled up this space a lil' too much. Till here, toodles!